It's been a week since my first story telling competition and I'm still basking in my success. I realized the moment I stepped on stage that you don't know what you can really do until you just do it. Up to now, I let my insecurities get the best of me. From now on, I'm going to stop. It's that simple. Prior to this event, I was scared shitless but I had to show my girls that fear should never hold you back. It's funny how everything always comes back to them. Where was all of this motivation eight years ago? Before they existed, I was just getting by. However, now I have something to prove because three pairs of eyes are looking to me to show them what confidence, determination and perseverance looks like.
Days before the event, as I was planning my trip to Philly, Marley decided that she wanted me to cancel.
Marley: Mommy, don't go. I'm going to miss you.
Me: Marley, I'm only going for one night.
Marley: I know, but I want you to tuck me in and make me breakfast in the morning.
Me: We'll see. I have to think about it.
And think about it I did. I thought about cancelling my trip because my kid was begging me to stay...right? I started using her feelings as an excuse to not go through with it. I was very close to punking out. My ticket was only $16, roundtrip, so I didn't have much to lose. I teetered on "Do I?" or "Don't I?" for a few days. In that time, I continued to practice my story. One morning, while I was in the shower, Maya walked into the bathroom, put the toilet seat cover down and got comfy.
Maya: Mom? are you talking to yourself?
Me: Kind of. I'm practicing my story.
Maya: Ok. Can you tell me a story about Dodo (my father)?
Note: She comes in at least one a week for me to tell her a story about Dodo. She hasn't realized yet that I've been telling the same story for years.
Me: How about I tell you my story for the competition?
I proceed in telling her the story for the competition. Halfway through, she walks into the hallway.
Maya: Mommy, watch me twirl.
Me: Really Maya? I thought you were listening to my story.
Maya: I am, but I want you to watch me twirl.
Me: Great job. Can I continue now?
Me: So...what do you think?
Maya: Good. Make sure you bring home that $100 when you win. Marley and I want to go to Toys R Us.
My mafia enforcer is tough so I knew I couldn't come home empty handed because she expected me to win.
When I called the next morning to share the good news, the girls had a lot to say.
Me: Hey guys, guess what?
Marley: We heard. You won.
Maya: But, according to Daddy we can't watch the video.
Marley: By the way, you owe us $5 per bad word.
WTH. Aside from the multiple shakedowns this experience was amazing. Im stepping way outside of my comfort zone and it feels great.
If you haven't seen the video, here it is. If you have, watch it again. You'll love even more the second time around.